
Okay, so this is the first entry. I don't exactly know how to start this thing. I know that when you get rolling and build a rapport (I'm not even through the 3rd sentence and there is an SAT word), it seems to be more natural. I'm going to shoot for this not sucking by Halloween.
So, I guess this is really about me. (Like most everything else in my world). I'm a girl, not yet a woman. (Oh shit, somehow Britney Spears has crawled into my head--damn photographic memory). I'm 25. I'm chubby (well, fat but I'm in denial). I'm engaged to Mike (you'll hear much more about him later). He's great, we're getting married. When? That's currently TBA, although he doesn't want to wait much longer.
I live in South Alabama. Not the intellectual hub of the U.S., but it is nice here. You can impress people by using words that have a French orgin. I am a geek. I went to a magnet high school. I was in the college honors program and had a full academic scholarship. I graduated with multiple honors and went to exclusive private law school. However, I would like to mention I didn't fit in at law school. I'm from a blue collar family and wasn't a socialite girl. I wasn't in law school to land a Mrs. degree and I wasn't there because my daddy, granddaddy and uncle are lawyers/judges. I went for the intellectual stimulus and the acquisition of knowledge. I was the girl wearing a My Little Pony t-shirt, funky sneakers, glasses (of course), a D20 necklace, hair in pig tails, and who knew all the answers. Much to the disgust of my soroiety sister, prada bag toting classmates with their tiny dog accessories. (Please note the My Little Cthulhu t-shirt in the picture. I love that one.)
Okay, back to where I was going somewhere up the page. I am a geek, specifically a gamer geek. We're higher up on the geek hierarchy. Although it started with video games, Mike has dragged me into the word of CCGs, CGMs, and every other game imaginable. We just got back from Dragon*Con 2007 with a half-dozen new games. Yes, really. I also am an AVID (ravenous) collector of My Little Ponies. And my collection is currently in the hundreds.
Anyways, I have high hopes for this. (And not just because I read several articles about how blogging can get you are book deal). This is going to be my outlet about 1) daily trials and tribulations 2) my weight and 3) my crazy family. (You're going to love that last one). I'm not in the mood to go into the specific familial breakdown, suffice it to say they are crazy and many conversations end in "Oh god. Really? You'd never think that would happen to the same person ever. So that is the second time this month. I'll be damned." This is also going to serve as my accountability for what I put in my mouth. NO! Your mind's in the gutter. I'm not that kind of girl. Ask Mike.
Back to the fattness, I'm using this as part of Weight Watchers. You (if anyone is actually reading this) will hear about what I'm actually eating, what I wish I was eating, and whether I've hit a pit of dispair where I'm close to eating the cat's treats. Weight Watchers is the only weight loss program that I think really works long term. That's kinda hypocritical because I've tried it. I'm still fat. But that's my own fault not Weight Watchers. They didn't make me fall in love with a resturant manager and force feed me Poptarts. Weight Watchers and I have a long history. I went to my first Weight Watcher meeting at age 9, because my mom thought I was "plump" (early bloomer). I've been very conscious of my weight since I was in 3rd grade. That's thanks to a bulemic mom and anorexic grandmothers. (Yes, really.) Apparently you don't have self-worth unless you hate yourself and wear a size 4. I never bought into that, and fattness was my teenage rebellion. Hell, they looked miserable, but I was fat and happy. But that isn't good either. The fat part, not the happy part. I was at my heaviest when I graduated high school. Probably about 325 lbs. (I'm 5'3" mind you). I was hitting wide = tall status. I wasn't all that happy, but did nothing about it. I'm now a svelt 280 lbs. Hee, hee. Yes, its bad for me. Yes, I'm doing something about it. Yes, I want to weight less than my fiance. Yes, I want less back fat.
So, I'm back to WW after a 6 month absence. I lost 25 lbs. in the beginning of '07, but was derailed by the Alabama Bar Exam. So, I gained about 7 lbs. back and decided to STOP IT before the whole 25 came back on. I guess that is a victory of sorts. Pants were getting tight and INSTEAD of pulling back out the fat(er) pants, I went back to WW. I've never been so stressed in my life as I was with the Bar exam and yes I turned to my old friend -- food (my specific downfall is the dairy group). But, I caught myself and it could have been much worse than the 5 lbs. I gained. Oh those other 2 lbs. were fun vacation pounds-I readily admit that. Dragon*Con 2007 baby! (It is actually my goal to de-chub for next year where I can go in costume as 1) hot school girl or 2) hot Anime chick).
My short term goal is to be UNDER 250. There we go, I set a goal.
P.S.: If you're wondering why the background is black, everybody looks better in black. Its slimming.